A face lift, but what to say. I know not what to say ov myselfs any longer. There is much anger, much frustration. Do not talk with your mouth full of food...especially when you are on the phone. It was only funny in Fight Club. Existence is a trial, or the result of a trial. Struggling to push myselfs above and beyond physical reality. Nothing makes thins easy, especially in even a small city. Life is pain. It should be. That is why I seek to transcend life, but not in the typical transcendental way of thinking. I don't think it is possible to explain. It just must be done. I care not which 'direction' I go. Be it uniting with the source, or existing as incubus, nosferatos, lich...it does not matter.